The Letters of H. P. Blavatsky to A. P. Sinnett

Letter No. 71

Mr dear Mr. Sinnett,

I told you not to say one word about D. N. I cannot say a little, without saying all to the world if you make it public. And if I do, then the L.L. will indeed be smashed if even Bowaji and I are smashed with it. Bowaji has a right according to Hindu custom to assume any "Mystery" name he chooses — even though there may be another man of the same name. You alone know a little, or may suspect, having heard it mentioned and rumoured in India that there are two D. N.'s. But I cannot prove it, without bringing out all I was ORDERED to keep silent upon. When (Oh Lord, when!) shall you realise that our laws and rules are not your (European) laws and rules! Now please do as I tell you in this case if you would not bring another and a worse scandal upon our heads.

I have received a letter from Miss Arundale who says that Bowaji is coming as their "private guest" on Sunday — today — now, when you are reading this letter. The only way to save the situation is for you to send for Miss Arundale and give her the enclosed letter for her and read it with her, and then show her the letter of the Countess to you, which she says she gave you permission to (have you not received her letter to this effect?). Let Miss Arundale, so devoted to the Cause and Masters know all you know under pledge of secrecy so far. Let her, if the little man is there already, tell him its all right and let him keep quiet, and then watch him and see what he says and does. If he keeps quiet, and does no harm why should we harm him? He is a chela, of whatever colour — and it is His Master's look out, not our business to reject and spurn him. For mercy and pity sake do not drive me to a desperate act. I do not care any more for my reputation. I only care to have Their holy names unsullied in the hearts of the few Theosophists who know Them, believe in them, and honour Them, whatever my mistakes and faults and the treacherous doings of other persons. But to keep them so unsullied, I shall have to resort to a desperate act now that the boy will be driven also to despair for an act that he has done, indeed, in a fit of madness. You are too "matter of fact" my dear Mr. Sinnett, and this is your mistake in all theosophical matters. Do consult with Miss A. and do remember that the things of our occult world are not to be measured by the standards of your world.

In haste,
H. P. B.

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